Hi. My husband actually found out he was ill 2 months after we were married. He went from working to being disabled. He was diagnosed with a lung disease, kidney disease, and scarcodosis. Each day is a challenge for us. We are fairly young mid 40s and I have been going through everything that I was not expecting. He was on medicine that made him gain 100 Lbs. We never make love I actually feel like I'm a nurse instead of a wife. I hate feeling like I'm giving up on him but I see myself experience some need that either he can't fulfill or don't want to. I love him dearly but he's not the man I fell in love with. We have not even had a honeymoon. I don't want to feel like the bad person when I want to go out, movies, dinner etc. But he never wants to go anywhere. He has all he needs, I cook, clean and cater to him. I also work two jobs have 2 children a 16 yrs old son that's a tri-athle. I have to support all around but sometimes I feel like no one supports me. HELP