Pat thank you hun. You are very right of how I should keep it short and to the point. I think I am just so upset that this is happening and most days feel so dam sick and don't think I will make it. I have much anger and frustration in me regarding this all. I know there are days I just try to release it and think positive. But when they continue to block me the anger all comes back. My daughter was very young hun when they did that surgery and sent me away. I wiped tears from her eyes on so many days. I had sent my girls back to live with there dad just until the doctors figure out what is wrong with mom. To learn that I have lived this many years sick and in pain and they had always known what is wrong is the hardest thing I will ever go through. I have become such a strong woman in so many ways but I do not have faith anymore I will ever go on record or get the medical care I need. Every organ in my body hurts and I know it all started with my ovaries. They are laughing at me and know that I have no chance of getting the tests done and ordered. If I could just find a doctor I could trust and a pathologist that will be willing to put hmself out there to help then I would again have a faith so deep even against all of the odds I have now. I want a chance to fight this. I don't think my body is strong enough anymore to do so. We are talking about major hospitals and doctors that have blocked me from comming. I do not see a light anywhere regarding this now. But I again thank you for your insight.
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Pat thank you hun. You are very right of how I should keep it short and to the point. I think I am just so upset that this is happening and most days feel so dam sick and don't think I will make it. I have much anger and frustration in me regarding this all. I know there are days I just try to release it and think positive. But when they continue to block me the anger all comes back. My daughter was very young hun when they did that surgery and sent me away. I wiped tears from her eyes on so many days. I had sent my girls back to live with there dad just until the doctors figure out what is wrong with mom. To learn that I have lived this many years sick and in pain and they had always known what is wrong is the hardest thing I will ever go through. I have become such a strong woman in so many ways but I do not have faith anymore I will ever go on record or get the medical care I need. Every organ in my body hurts and I know it all started with my ovaries. They are laughing at me and know that I have no chance of getting the tests done and ordered. If I could just find a doctor I could trust and a pathologist that will be willing to put hmself out there to help then I would again have a faith so deep even against all of the odds I have now. I want a chance to fight this. I don't think my body is strong enough anymore to do so. We are talking about major hospitals and doctors that have blocked me from comming. I do not see a light anywhere regarding this now. But I again thank you for your insight.
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