Hi. Been married 22 years to my bride. 4 months into our marriage she got sprayed by a chemical at work. She became a chronic paranoid schizophrenic and life changed for us both very fast. Physically she was poisoned and mentally i didnt know her. I was 23 and lost but fir God. I decided that i made a vow to her and the lord to take care of her, sometimes the only thing tht brought me home was that vow. Its difficult enough being a young man and having no sexual contact but you add on the fact that youre only existance is for someone who hates you, life, and everything about life, and you start dying inside. 21 years later i still am her caretaker, the husband part was gone long ago. She is more a sister, and a sister in christ than a wife. But ive kept tht vow i made and when God takes her home i will be sad and happy because she will be the gal i loved again so long ago.
As for me ive learned that i lost myself and who i was, in the past year i foubd a friend who makes sure i do something for myself once a month and altho i have changed, i am gradually finding joy in life again. Before now i was just waiting for her to pass away so that i could die myself. Dont get so far down that you see no light like i did. Stop and see your worth beyond caretaker. God bless you. Hang in there. One survivor to another
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Hi. Been married 22 years to my bride. 4 months into our marriage she got sprayed by a chemical at work. She became a chronic paranoid schizophrenic and life changed for us both very fast. Physically she was poisoned and mentally i didnt know her. I was 23 and lost but fir God. I decided that i made a vow to her and the lord to take care of her, sometimes the only thing tht brought me home was that vow. Its difficult enough being a young man and having no sexual contact but you add on the fact that youre only existance is for someone who hates you, life, and everything about life, and you start dying inside. 21 years later i still am her caretaker, the husband part was gone long ago. She is more a sister, and a sister in christ than a wife. But ive kept tht vow i made and when God takes her home i will be sad and happy because she will be the gal i loved again so long ago.
As for me ive learned that i lost myself and who i was, in the past year i foubd a friend who makes sure i do something for myself once a month and altho i have changed, i am gradually finding joy in life again. Before now i was just waiting for her to pass away so that i could die myself. Dont get so far down that you see no light like i did. Stop and see your worth beyond caretaker. God bless you. Hang in there. One survivor to another
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